september seventeenth twenty twenty four
hi welcome to the harvest moon edition of my blog! this covers the virgo new moon until the pisces full moon and lunar eclipse.
this goes out to uncle rick, a former coworker and friend of mine. i remember him always singing. constantly. harvest moon was one of many songs i assosciate with him (click the title at the end of the blog to hear it!).
as i am thinking of him i remember one smoke break where me and my other coworker evan (and maybe some other people? sorry unnamed contributants) were sitting outside in a lewiston alley, and we see a disembodied bird leg. we wonder what happened. uncle rick joins us shortly, and i point it out.
he proceeds to tell me how its a pigeon leg, and it was killed by a hawk. that the hawks will just snatch the pigeons out of the alley, leaving behind nothing but a single leg and maybe a feather. he tells me he seent it in person. i wholeheartedly believe him. uncle rick has since passed but i think of him every time i see a 99 gold nip, a pigeon, watch a hawk kill something, or i hear harvest moon. all of these things happen much more often than i ever could have guessed. a good, friendly, kind, and jovial man who i often find myself hoping i can be in the same category as some day. hope you're resting well, my friend, on this harvest moon.
9.16.24
Tonight there is an Aurora chance. The solar energy is right but the moon is incredibly bright, basically full. I think complete illumination is tomorrow. (*i see in the morning many pictures of the auroras last night! just wasn't right time for me, as it were.)
Me, my mom, dad, and the dog go stand on the porch together. The moon is so bright! But it's obscured by a tree in front of the house. Me and my dad and the dog go to the backyard, mom sits on the porch cuz she's wearing slippers.
We stand in the freshly cleared yard, my dad has spent all summer clearing the overgrown backyard and chipping up all the young trees. And watch the moon. There is a soft ring of light glowing in the particles of the atmosphere.
The whole world is bathed in the moonlight. I cite an anecdote of Folk Wisdom I had heard about how it's called the Harvest Moon because once upon a time, the farmers would work during the night during this full moon because it is so bright. I have no idea if this is true, I tell my dad this as well. We decide it sounds right. I could Google it, but I'm not going to.
I point out Saturn, right beside the moon, on the edge of ring of moon glow.
My dad asks me if I can see the shadowy parts on the moon. I say, "yeah, I love looking at the craters. Some times you can really tell why people compare it to a face."
Dad says the moon looks like it's smirking.
It looks like my cat, Shady! he tells me.
Indeed it does.
The full moon is in Pisces, along with Saturn. This Saturn and full moon is placed directly opposed from my natal Virgo sun and moon. My dad is a Pisces sun, so is Shady.
9.15.24
I am trying to hard to hold on to my existence. Parts that were so lovingly and generously given to me, and space I have worked so hard to create.
I am losing. My grip. My friends. My family. My life. My sense of reality.
I would say I was losing a sense of myself too but I know I don't know that guy. I am realizing I knew him even less than I could have guessed. No one else knows him, either, so I haven’t been able to ask anyone else what they think of him. Can’t blame them for not wanting to.
I went for a ride to drop my brothers girlfriend off at work with them. When we came home, there is a big fat bird flapping its wings as hard as possible, running away as we drive up the driveway. I recognize it as a woodcock. I love those guys. He flies away over the roof of the garage when we get out of the car. read September 11's entry for more info on woodcocks. I'd never seen them before but I have seen three different sightings,four individuals now since our trip to Baxter in early July. Better days.
9.14.24
today i asked the universe to send me a clear sign, of something. anything. i go to a yard sale with my mom. i end up with three hand ripped copies of john prine's in spite of ourselves. i've added the titular song to my pix at the end of this blog entry. this is a very important sign to me and was in fact, crystal clear.
i asked earlier, maybe on the 8th? for a previous sign. i was granted a visit by a seal at bug light park. this immediately treminded me of gordon bok's telling of o-e-dalley, a tale of a woman who falls in love with as seal man, who takes from her the hunger of money and the fear of dying. i have included a playlist of the entirety of seal djiril's hymn in my picks too. please give it a listen, he is a fellow mainer. :)
9.11.24
I am watching the sunset down at lake auburn today. I haven't been here since they changed the boat launch and got rid of the parking lot. It is nice. I am the only one here. I sit on the dock and gaze into the crystal clear waters. I see teeny little fish swimming around. I can see little teeny baby bugs swimming around too. I hear a loon's call in the distance. I watch a woodcock fly by. It is the third time I've seen one.
9.9.24
My mom threw a birthday party for me today. It was supposed to be a surprise but it is impossible to keep a surprise from me. I always find out. This time, it was because I thought I was going to Mt Washington for my birthday (the last time i had mentioned my birthday we had discussed this) and my parents couldn't come up with an excuse as to why we couldn't go anymore. So they told me. As it goes. I always wish I could get a surprise, as I generally like them, but I need to know everything too badly.
Jake and Erica hand make me some nice birthday banners. I really appreciate them. I deeply appreciate the effort my mom and dad and brother and his girlfriend put into having a nice little party for me. My best friend and her boyfriend came, along with my uncle and my cousin. We played apples to apples and had some drinks and smoked. It was nice to see everyone. I eat birthday cake, my favorite desert. I don't enjoy it. His name burns the bottoms of my feet. He will always be with me, every step of the way.
9.7.24
Cold today. I say this when we're outside getting the groceries my mom just bought. My dad says "no it's not, it's comfortable out today."
When we're inside, my mom says "damn it's hot today."
Interesting how different of a perspective we can all have on this.
jays picks : songs i like right now (CLICK THE WORDS TO LISTEN ON YOUTUBE)
harvest moon - neil young. in spite of ourselves - john prine and iris dement. never there - cake. seal djiril's hymn - gordon bok ; full album playlist