june twelfth twenty twenty five
hi everyone welcome back to my blog. you may have noticed i stopped updating. well, im updating again. so. this entry has june's full moon back to april's full moon. everything between november and april is lost to time, as it should be. i was keeping observations this whole time but am choosing not to put them all in one entry and im too lazy to update. anyways thanks for reading again.
6.11.25
On the blessings of Saturn;
Oh, Saturnus. My beloved god of blood and smoke.
Your blessings ring deep in the bones. Always, always, exactly what is needed.
And, perhaps, you are not given the thanks you should.
I find that Saturn helps those who NEED it. and KNOW it. The kind of blessings that literally make you say "thank god."
Not always grand and shiny gold (although it certainly could be), not even always a "good" situation, but always delivered in incredibly profound, notable, APPRECIATED ways.
Let us set the scene.
Your car is starting to grind in the breaks. You know. You go, "hm. I really need to check that out but I have a bunch of driving I MUST do before I can have the time."
You are on the last task, ready to make the long journey home. The grinding has gotten progressively worse. You think "I probably shouldn't drive home on this."
But what are you going to do? You're 3 hours away from home and you have an appointment that afternoon.
Well.
Saturn answers. There is a mechanic beside the hotel you are staying at. You didn't need to notice this before.
Great, what are the odds that they can see my car? You choose to call.
Saturn answers. They say bring it right on in.
Even better! You do. You think, "please, be less than 700$. That's all I really have."
The mechanic checks out your car. He quotes you 1800, because you might need your whole brakes and calipers done, you have metal on metal grinding together or something catastrophic. He says this is the "high end”, he doesn't know what exactly will be needed yet but to expect more work than less.
What the fuck. You NEED the car fixed. Period.
So you do all the arranging of money and balancing of credit cards and everything, preparing to spend every fucking cent you have, and be there all day.
Two hours later; Saturn says. 650$, and drive home.
You get home in time for your appointment.
You are left violently aware that had you ignored this, and gone home instead of dealing with it when you notice it is becoming a problem, you would have been paying the 1800$. If you could pay it at all and didn't just have to drive it into the ground.
Saturn says; who's a good boy.
6.10.25
Nothing fills my heart like when the chickens come running to greet me. My rooster, Titus, is always the first to greet me. He lets me pick him up and cuddle him.
6.05.25
I officially graduated high school today. Passed the last test. Graduation was on Friday.
The moon is obscured by clouds today. It's been hazy, Sahara dust and wildfire smoke. The way Saturn intends it.
I go out to harvest chives at twilight for my lobster roll.
Once again, I am living the dream.
Now for that boyfriend who actually likes me.
6.04.25
Sitting outside on the sun smoking a morning joint. A giant crow lands on the tree in front of me. It has a big hole in its wing.
6.03.25
I see a whirl pool in the kennebec today.
At 8:30 I hear the hermit thrush. It is the first time I have heard their song in so so so long. Still my favorite bird song.
6.02.25
The moon has looked like the tarot card "the moon"the last few days.
5.18.25
sacrificing shots of tequila to the god Antinous to make them go down smoother.
5.11.25
Saw the first hummingbird of the year today at 4:44 pm while me and my mom were smoking a joint. It's Mother's Day. It was flying very high.
5.5.25.
Chickens go out to the big girl coop today.
5.3.25
First thunderstorm of the year. Lots of rain and lightning even!
4.29.25
I picked up a piece of tektite today. It literally jumped out of my hand. It felt like when two wrong sides of the magnet meet.
4.28.25
75* today. Beautiful, warm, clear blue skies. The violets are blooming. The grass is green. A warm, gentle breeze.
4.25.25
I left an offering of my tears of longing for Antinous Mercurius today.
At some point, the flame escaped the close fines of the candle and lights everything in the Lucerna on fire.
Around this time, a bug flies by.
4.22.25
Today my brothers girlfriend comes in and goes
"Hi Josh! The flowers bloomed!"
Then shuffled along her merry way.
4.21.25
The Pope died like yesterday or today or something. I dunno, time zones or whatever.
Yesterday was Easter Sunday. Today is the birthday of Rome.
On Thursday, I was out to eat with my mom, we watched the Vatican foot washing ceremony. She tells me at length about how big of a deal it was last time they had to pick a new pope.
Some other symbols that have come up incredibly poignantly lately ;
LIONS, WINGS, the Suit of Wands, clubs, the court, red, yellow, and ORANGE. Wind, and flames, but not fire. Venus. Saturn.
4.20.25
First flowers up today. Daffodils, white with yellow centers. I hear a white throated sparrow sing.
4.19.25
Found a black bean in my pocket today. It is in the 60s. Beautiful out. The first buds on the lilac tree are becoming leaves.
4.13.25
I leave an offering to Iuppiter today. 6 almonds and 8 hot fries and 8 pistachios.
4.12.25
Snowing yet again.
Today is the full moon. It is the exact degree of my ascendant, part of fortune. On the day of my lord Saturn.