november fifteenth twenty twenty four
11.15.24
Today's full moon is in Taurus. Ruled by Venus, on Friday, which is also under her rulership. Look for her in the night sky today. You will see her, she is the brightest star. Tell her Thank You. I will be offering her much energy in support of her work on a petition I made for her to literally move a mountain.
Venus Gratia.
11.14.24
I've enjoyed spending my time in Lewiston. Every day im there, we go for a nice walk together. He lives in the tree streets which is considered the "bad part" of Lewiston. We walk to the park. It is very nice here. The sidewalks seem nicely paved and it is generally cleaner than I remember College or Main st being when I lived there. I see many other people walking around. I am viscerally reminded that people look down on Lewisron because refugees and "poor people live here.
Compared to , literally, Main st in Biddeford, this place seems very nice. Lively and full of beat. There is beautiful public art everywhere and you can tell people enjoy living in their homes here. While Biddeford seemed like a ghost town of vagrant lost souls to me, the most downtrodden having to put themselves on display at all hours in storefronts and parking lots because there is no place to provide them privacy or easy access to resources. I often felt scared" in Biddeford in a way I never have in Lewiston. (I hate saying scared because it is not fear it is simply the discomfort of being in a dilapidated and abandoned place, which comes with the feeling to watch my back).
I sit at home in my bedroom listening to Sugaree on the radio. My mom comes inside and says smells like snow. Feels like snow.
This evening I watch Beverly Hillbillies with my parents. They both tell me about an episode about the invasion of the Grunions. We all watch it together.
I think of my Mabinogi Title "the Keeper of Precious Memories."
11.12.24
I am the washing dishes in someone else's kitchen. He is making me dinner and picking up a little or something. He sings along to a song he likes, Hozier's "Work Song" which plays after Steve Lacy's "Bad Habit".
He reminds me of a white throated sparrow. Sam Peabody pea, Peabody pea, Peabody pea.
I think of the song of the sweet song of the hermit thrush I once knew so well. Singing at 8 pm, only when the weather is nice.
I eat a guava. I like it. It's full of hard seeds you can't chew. I eat another guava. I think of the song Guava Jelly.
And the moon shines through the window above his bed. Just like home.
11.10.24
Today is the 49th anniversary of the wreck of the Edmund Fitzgerald. That song slaps. I love the tales of human history and experience carried through time in the form of song. I tell my mom and dad about this anniversary and they say of the song or the wreck. I say the wreck. They say, really?
11.6.24
It is 78 degrees today and not even kind of sunny. It is overcast, windy, and hot. Weird as hell. Since im someone who has lived in New England their entire life my body intrinsically knows it is not supposed to be this warm this time of year. The air feels evil. I joke that freeze is helling over.
My mom has been having a weird trigger finger issue with her ring finger the last few weeks. She saw her doctor about it but not t changed. I ask her if she has tried a capsaicin cream. She says she used to use that but it made her skin burn. I say okay, would she let me try making her something. I make her a poultice of aloe juice, to soften cool and protect from burns, chili powder, to unfreeze, (not powder of chili peppers but powder used to flavor chili. It has chili peppers, salt, pepper, garlic, and "spices".), and a tiny bit of clove tea (about 10 cloves microwaved in about two tablespoons of water) to numb from pain. It starts working very quickly. I ask my mom what she objectively thinks about it; she is a believer but is chronically ill and a nurse so observant of the effects on her body. She tells me it feels soft, warm, and the pain is easing. Exactly the things i was hoping to accomplish. I am impressed with the power of nature.
11.3.24
Christmas cactus are just now popping their first blooms. I wonder if this might identify it as a thanksgiving cactus.
11.2.24
Today is my Papa's birthday.
We are listening to music and Erica mentions Danny Boy. My mom tells me it is her dad's favorite song. We are playing rummy together.
She recants to me a memory of how my papa would sing that song and dance with my gramma in the kitchen when the beat dropped. She says she can picture it, how cute it was because my gramma is so short and my papa was so tall.
We are all playing cards. I remember that my grammas favorite game is called hand and foot, she wouldn't teach it to me. My mom tells me that she, my papa, and their good friends Fred and Ruth DeFeo. Once my mom tells me this it makes more sense to me that she wouldn't want to teach me but I wish she would.
After we are done, I go to watch tv and my favorite episode of Seinfeld is playing. The one where George sees a quack doctor.
Erica tells me she went to warm up the last chicken teriyaki and there was a blue hair on it. She shows me the hair. I tell her not to throw it away because I will eat it anyways and I thank her for pulling the hair off for me.
JAYS PICKS : {danny boy - GENTRI (the version erica showed us)} X {guava jelly - bob marley & the wailers} X {bad habit - steve lacy} X {work song - hozier} X {the grunion invasion episode beverly hillbillies(FREE! youtube)} X {the heart attack episode seinfeld (FREE! internet archive)}